Fail

The truth is, I looked for a picture that would tell the thousand words I failed to find; but then I failed to find the picture too.

"Deedle dee dum is the song that I hum"

"and the tune keeps ringing..."

"Bekliyorum gelmiyor çok garip bu bir şaka mı gelince ne olucak sanki? Ella Fitzgerald. Deedle dee dum. Hay allahım bu nasıl bir şaka. 12 oldu mu giderim. Muhtemelen gitmem ama 10 geçe giderim. Sen bile tutamazsın yıldızlar tutamaz. Şaka heralde. Şu halim. Vay anasını. Mahallenin dork'u olduk iyi mi. Bu bekleyişin ardından etrafımdan geçen kimseye bakmasam daha iyi. İnanamıyorum. Bu Cadde'ye çağırılıp "öbür kızı seviyorum" konuşması yapmaktan da kötü. Şu an bu bir rezalet. 12 it is. Kaderde ilk haftadan da ekilmek varmış. Yuh demek istiyorum. Ya da eşek şakası materyali olmak. O kadar da sevimli çocuk hem de. Görmemiş gitmiş olsa ne gülerim. Ama nerde. Vay be. İyi sıçmışım bu sefer. Son 6 dakika then I'm out. Çüşünüz be kardeşim. Çüş. 5 dakika. Ne malmışım lan. Bu ne. Deedle dee dum is the song that I hum and the world is singing. Son bir dakika +/- 2. Ama yuh. Gerçekten. 12. Oha. OHA. Gerçekten. Yuh. Çüş. Oha. Şu anki durumu toparlayacak tüm durumlar çocuğun ölümüyle ilgili. Şimdi veya yakında. Oha oha oha oha."

***

- I am an idiot.
- Can I call you an idiot? I'd feel so much better.
- Yes.
- Idiot. There.

***

- So what do you miss the most about home?
- My girlfriend. I miss her like hell.

***

"Deedle deedle deedle deedle deedle deedle deedle dee dum!"
- Ella Fitzgerald

Answering Machine #8

"Yo what's up man? I uh, I don't know i just wanted to say that uh, everything's cool with me now, I mean i just think, I think I'll always be funky, can't stop being funky, but I guess we just deal with it how it comes, deal with the humps, take the jumps, I feel like you're an island of reality in an ocean of diarrhea. And I love you buddy. Ok. Bye."


(Details in the Fabric - Jason Mraz & James Morrison)

Answering Machine #7

"Hey... Well, uhm, I really don't know why I called. I just thought hearing your voice was a nice idea. I'm home, but I really don't know where I am, what I'm doing. Everything seems..messed up. 'know what I mean? Everything is so..so tangled up. But it is going to end... Sometime. Eventually. I don't know what makes me so anxious. It's wearing me down. I know it's stupid, because I can see the end, but I can't help but worry. I just can't..can't help it. Uhm.. So anyway. Call me when you can. I missed you. Yeah.. Okay."

Answering Machine #6

"Yo what's up man? I uh, I don't know i just wanted to say that uh, everything's cool with me now, I mean i just think, I think I'll always be funky, can't stop being funky, but I guess we just deal with it how it comes, deal with the humps, take the jumps, I feel like you're an island of reality in an ocean of diarrhea. And I love you buddy. Ok. Bye."

From: Bushwalla

To: Jason Mraz

(Details in the Fabric)

Answering Machine #5

"Dude! I got us tickets for the Iron Maiden concert! And listen to this: they are... V-I-P TICKETS! V-effing I-P TICKETS! Dude, you gotta call me back! A-S-A-P! WHOOAAA!"

Answering Machine #4

"... Hello? .. Will? Hello? ... Godda--"

Answering Machine #3

21.00
"..."

21.32
"Hey. It's Jeff. Can you call me when you get this message?"

22.49
"Uhm.. It's me again. Call me. Soon.."

23.17
"We need to talk. Please call me back."

23.28
"I know it's getting a bit annoying, but I really need to tell you something."

23.45
"Seriously G, this is important."

00.02
"G... Come on. This really is important."

00.07
"If you won't pick it up, I'm just going to leave another message."

00.13
"I told you I would.. But I can't tell you this through a silly answering machine message. Please G, please pick up the phone.. Or at least call me back when you get these..."

04.32
"Hey G. Yes, uhm it's me. Again. I know. But I just couldn't sleep. I just had to tell you this.. Oh Lord, here it goes... I--"

*Message Inbox FULL*

Answering Machine #2

"(silence) ...I know you're there... Just pick it up, will you? I just want to say I'm sorry. You know..I really am. I know I shouldn't say those things and I shouldn't shout at you like that, but sometimes... Sometimes you really cross the line and you... You don't listen. Almost never. You--you drive me crazy, okay? You just--really..Ah! Just pick it up! Pick the damn thing up and talk to me. Say something, anything!.. (silence) Or don't... I don't know."

Answering Machine #1

"Hey mom, it's Ty. I missed you guys. How's dad doing? Is he still working on that old truck? He has to get a rest, that old Caddy is long gone. Say hey to Mel, and tell her I'll bring back her DVDs the next time I'm home. Oh and.. Mom... I fell in love. He's tall and brunette and has the prettiest smile. He loves Douglas Adams and plays the alto sax. And he loves me. And, uhm... That's pretty much it, really. I'll call again on Saturday. Take care and give dad a huge kiss. Love you!"